My Bad.....

Sorry for any inconvenience about my blog being unavailable for a while. It's not that I don't love you all. But I will be posting soon, very soon and then ya'll can finally know how my life is! :) Which I am sure you guys are all dying to know!

I hurt when you hurt, I smile when you smile....

Does anyone ever feel like, just after you get over this huge test in your life and you are finally feeling peace and happiness that you have to hear that someone else has so much more in their life they have to go through? I know I do. I am grateful for my life. I am grateful for my family, friends, testimony, my job, the opportunity to go to school. I'm grateful for the knowledge I have of the plan of Salvation. I am grateful I know where my loved ones go once they leave this Earthly state. I have so much to be grateful for, but yet I still complain, daily, hourly. Why? I need to quit this horrible habit of mine.
I found out tonight that one of my new, but closest guy friends is having a hard time in life. Not just because his grandpa AND dad are dying, but also because his Mom is struggling with depression. His brother went into Emergency heart surgery today... oh and He, himself possibly has testicular cancer. What the heck? He is still helping me through my day??? Listening to me complain about my "Lonnnng day" at school or how boring class was? What is my deal? His parents didn't even raise him. His grandparents did. I have awesome parents who supported me and still support me in following any of my dreams no matter how crazy they are. Why can't I just be happy in my life? My life isn't a breeze. I struggle daily to find happiness, but I think I need to look closer in my life and realize that I am lucky for my life and need to not take that for granted.
I also need to remember that I find most happiness when I am serving others. That is something that I haven't done in a real long time. And I need to start serving others so I can be happy. Whether that is selfish or not, I really don't care. But I feel better about my life when others around me are happy. So this weeks/ months goal is to serve others. And to try to make my new B.F.F. realize his happiness in his life.....

ER visit....

Friday I had some really bad pains in my.... uterus. I felt like I was going to die. So I ended up in the ER. I'm not dying, but need to figure out what is going on. This is how I was at first before the drugs, in a LOT of pain....

This is after the shot in my butt hit me. I was so happy. Probably a little too much. I told Kristin I wanted to eat clouds and I was trying to tip the bed at this point.....
Then Kristin quoted her dad about the "Death Clock"... "Ohhh... cool, the DEATH CLOCK!!!"

And last, but not least, the computer that kept Kristin sane. This computer said why everyone was in the ER. We learned the codes pretty quickly. Yes, I blocked mine out. Mine was embarressing.... sick!As much as I LOOOVED the E.R. I hope to never have to go back there. It wasn't fun. But I am sure it will be more fun to go to the E.R. rather than the OBGYN...... Boo!

I loath lame people!

I am grateful for all my friends that are protective of me and deal with my stupidity. However, there are some people in this world that I can NOT stand and that is LAME people. Not lame as in they can't walk. Lame as in they are so stupid in their choices that they need to jump off a cliff in the next 24 hours and if they don't jump. I might push them! I HATE LAME PEOPLE!!!!!!!! And to all those lame-Os out there. DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously. Lame people include, but are not limited to, rapist, murderers, druggies, pedophiles, thief's, and other seriously lame, creepy acting people. You are ruining people's lives! Especially mine!!!!

Can you feel the love tonight?

I have been incredibly sick lately. Like, really, really bad. I have been way stressed out too. I can't pinpoint the stress. It's not work, it's not school, it's nothing in particular, but I think it's just everything together. So I went about a week where I couldn't eat, or sleep. And that is just NOT ME!!! So I was always low on energy and just depressed almost. The guys at work could NOT stand it. They kept asking me what's wrong and if I needed a hug or anything. They are so cute. They are all so protective of me and I love it. The other day we had a little drama at work and since I am the Manager now I have to deal with it and I got chewed out, bad timing on my boss's part but what can you do so I was sitting in the office checking my work e-mail and pulling my hair so it was blocking my face from everyone else. I was crying and didn't want them to know. So I finally stop crying and of course you can tell and Adam stops me and comes up to me and he usually isn't so lovey-dovey but he comes up to me wraps his arms around me and says, "I'll kill him! Who is he?" I laughed a little just walked away. Then JR saw me walking back over to the tanning salon and he literally sprinted so he could open the door for me and followed me into the tanning salon. As soon as we get in he stopped me and gave me this HUGE bear hug and was like "Whatever... they are dumb anyway. You are the coolest tanning manager... NO! The coolest, bestest, prettiest manager I think God ever made!" Awe..... then he said something hilarious and I started laughing. I just adore the guys I work with. They keep me sane and living my life each day. Thanks boys!

Life goes on....

Ok, so ya'll know my obsession with the Twilight Series, well... Breaking Dawn came out on Saturday and well... let's just say my world stopped this weekend. I really have not taken the time to put the book down to eat, sleep, or shower. I did stop to go to the bathroom. Ok, I did stop a few times to take a nap but not a long one, just enough time to rest my eyes so they could continue reading. Here is how it all began. On Friday I convinced Kristin to go with me to get the book at midnight. I didn't want to wait any longer. Then as soon as we got the book which took us all of 5 minutes to do. Thanks to Deseret Book! We drove by a certain store... with a billion people outside (ok, ok, only a measly 6,000!!!! *cough, cough... Barnes and Noble*) and held the book out the window telling them to go to Deseret Book and some people were grateful and ran to their cars, others were rude. So I slowed the car down and yelled... Oh yeah. And Bella DIES!!!! haha and drove away. I felt like a bratty kid that just told their little brother that Santa isn't real. Anyways, so I immediately forced Kristin to start reading.... and then next thing I knew it was Saturday morning and the sun was rising. I looked at the clock and realized it said 6am.... ooops. So I slept till 10 and started reading again. Kristin read a lot faster than me. She's some sort of reading nerd or something. Anyways, we read all day. My roommate kept coming in and out and laughing at us. She thought we were nuts. And I think we gave a new meaning to "Lazy Americans". Kristin was pretty much always about 100 pages ahead of me(and it's not because I am a slow reader, it's because she is some sort of super kid that reads like 1000 words a sentence. I'm just average!) And she would sometimes gasp, laugh, or yell NOOOO. I always looked at her with a million questions in my mind wanting to ask her. She didn't tell me anything. Which I am glad she didn't but I really hate surprises. I read all the spoilers I could before getting the book. She kept her mouth shut and told me to too and to keep reading. But when she finished she was so giddy. Like a fat kid locked inside a fully stalked bakery/ candy store. It was like shark week starting all over again. I didn't understand her excitement... for the end of the book or for shark week for that matter. But I decided to continue reading. And I finally understand. Tonight while she was taking her nap after such an excruciating day for her, I finished. I immediately made some noise so she would wake up. Then I started talking about how wonderful I felt and happy... and blah, blah, blah. My life is now complete. I love the Twilight Series with all of my heart. If you haven't read it, stop hating your life and go read it. If you are a boy and feel lame about life IF you read it, don't! Your life would be so much better if you read Twilight, I promise. It actually probably won't, but you could understand why everyone that has read it is obsessed with Edward. That is all. The End!