Tuesday, April 3, 2012
So apparently I suck at blogging. Let's just go ahead and all agree that this is not my passion, nor is it my first choice. I am going to choose to blame it on the fact that I get on my computer once a month. Ok that is false, I am constantly on the computer at work but that is because I am running a report, booking an appointment, or just taking a payment. Whatever. I hate blogging. Get over it. But today I shall enlighten you. Yes, you are welcome. So as of late my life has been crazy! I have moved, been homeless for 3 weeks, gone out of country, finished my college education, met new people, reconnected with old people, reflected on life, opened a salon, and tried to find my true calling in life. It has been crazy! I look back on the last 6 months and am amazed at everything. I feel like my life has been moving a million miles a minute and I have been trying to keep up. I am not sure if I have succeeded or not, but let's just say I have. So first things first! I AM A COLLEGE GRADUATE!!!!! Holy crap! I can honestly say I NEVER thought I would actually graduate and get the paper and be all official and everything! WOW! What a great feeling! I am in the middle of a move. I moved in November to a townhouse with my girl, Allie. I love Allie with all my heart. The day I got back from our cruise she told me she was moving to Vegas and it felt like my world had come crashing down. I was so sad. Happy for her, but sad for me. She was seriously the best roommate. She was one of my best friends! I loved living with her! So she moved out like a week later. So I was living alone for like 2 weeks and then got way too lonely and slept on my friend's couch for a week, and now I am staying with my boss/ friend/ family I used to nanny for. I finally get to move into my NEW apartment with 2 strangers on Saturday (Hale-freaking-lujah!) So I will try and post on that later.. (Don't hold your breathe!) Let's see what else... oh ya I opened this salon and stuff. It's going really well! Making above our goal every month! Makes me look super amazing... but pretty sure it's my stylist that is making us succeed! Reflection: Life is crazy hard. Like really, really hard. Sometimes when I think about life, the meaning, what I should be doing and where I should be at my life gets confusing. I know what I believe, so my testimony isn't being questioned, but just making sure you are sticking to the "plan". I just feel like sometimes that we need to step back from life and make sure we are a good person. I guess that is my soul searching is questioning if I am a good person or not... and I have come to the conclusion that I suck at personal relationships... i.e. friendships. I do not contact people. I don't reach out to people. And I realize that. I apologize to anyone that has ever felt like I ignored you or didn't pay enough attention to you in our relationship. I am such a driven person and get side tracked on things so easily. I know I don't call enough (period!). I am sorry! I think about the people I love a lot. I think about it, but for some reason I don't pick up my phone and call. The thing I feel bad about the most is that when my mom calls me and says this "I figured I better call you because I haven't heard from you in a while..." it breaks my heart. Worst daughter ever award goes to me! Awesome. I feel bad. I don't even call home, but not because I don't want to. I just don't. I have no excuse. Anyways, I guess I just focus on the people around me and try to do everything to help them and do what I can for them. I have concluded that even though I suck at staying in contact with people, I am willing to serve whenever and where ever I can. My dad is amazing at serving others and I learned this from him. So even though I have some major faults, I think the fact that I love to serve others helps make up for the flaws. Anyways this is long and I am sick of blogging. So here is the moral of the story. I am alive. I am grateful for my friends and family. I love you all! I pray for your safety and happiness every day!
Written by ME at 9:39 PM